30 Day Challenge - Day 18

A Picture of Your Biggest Insecurity

I'm not insecure about the woods, I like the woods....

No, I'm insecure about being a Leader and I'm faced with being one now.

I was recently promoted to a team lead position and to say the least, I'm a little freaked out about it. I'm touched that my bosses felt confident in putting me in the position and I want to deliver on their expectations. I also want to be able to guide and motivate my team, formerly my peers, and that is challenging.

Years ago I went to New Orleans with a bunch of my college friends for New Years Eve. We had a fabulous time, even though we were only there for 2 nights (eh, we were all still very young and could bounce back quickly). New Years Eve we went to Pat O'Briens Piano Bar and drank Hurricanes and sang and rang in the new year with great frivolity. The second night, we returned to Bourbon Street, with a slightly lower-key agenda. We hit a couple of bars, a voodoo shop, etc. One of the things that I did, and a couple of others as well, was I had some random Gypsy woman in some ally read my palm. During this reading, she told me that I was a leader and needed to except that fact as I would perform well at it. Well, I've avoided this mantel for probably 15 years as I never really saw myself as a leader. I've always seen myself as a support person. I once had a manager tell me I was like his Radar from M*A*S*H because I knew what needed to be done before he even asked for it. Maybe that is because I've been able to see the big picture as a leader should and not just my individual pixel in that picture.

Anyway, I'm taking on the challenge, but I'm scared to death that somebody is going to realize that I don't have a clue what I'm doing and that my feet are bleeding from all the tap-dancing....

Keep your fingers crossed for me....